So, Happy New year to everyone (:

I had a killer night, and a killer Christmas.

No resolutions, maybe to worry less, don't know? 

This year will be a tough one, the prospect of surgery is quite worrying, however it has birthed the idea of getting a tattoo, to be featured on my right shoulder blade (as pictured below). Three birds, one for my parents, one for my grandparents, and one for my brother.  It'd be commemorative- a representative of my inner strength, which will surface worse comes to worse. 

 Definitely getting this as a tattoo.

I had a dream that the whole World was staring at me

I woke up and wasn't no one there, wasn't no one there, yeah eh eaah

Same song to a different beat
Cause really sometimes it feels like I'm the only one there
I guess nobody cares, hey
But everything's good until it goes bad
And your gonna tell all the people about the fun you used to have
It hurts when it don't last
No easy way saying bye
So I'ma spread my wings and head for the sky
And I fly solo
I fly solo
And I fly solo
And I fly solo.

I'll leave the door on the latch,

If you ever come come back, if you ever come back,

There'll be a light in the hall, and the key under the mat,

If you ever come back,

There'll be a smile on my face and the kettle on,

And it will be just like you were never gone.

The Script- If you ever come back

here comes september.

'Someday' never really comes, does it ?

if you're going through hell, keep going. 

if he was stupid enough to walk away, be smart enough to let him go.

Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.

Everyone tells me I should forget about you, and that you don't deserve me, that's true, but I deserve you.

So as I sit here, rendering my blog, I feel somewhat like SJP from a decade old episode of SATC. It's the end, conclusive part of every episode that I appreciate the most. Carrie Bradshaw is in some ways an inspirational character to me, though often her circumstance is often unrelated to mine, I find truth in almost everything she says.  I'm not one to languidly voice my opinion on love through the medium of a blogpost, but much like cookery, I find it therapeutic. I also swear by quotations. 

It's been a crazy 26 hours for me. For the few that know, it's something completely sickening and confusing that's entered me into this state. It's difficult to identify why certain people do certain things, and often blaming yourself is an easier option. Not for a second have I ever felt sorry for myself, I aim to forgive, but to remember. I'm stronger than I initially thought, and music is partially responsible.

Beyonce - Best thing I never had

Coldplay - LOST!

B.O.B - Ghost in the machine

The King Blues - We are fucking angry

fall from the top.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kGciFOIsON8&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tKi9Z-f6qX4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sYRm0Xyn328

Pick one, any one.

back up?

change isn't cool when you're hurting people that are trying to care for you-
sometimes your friends are only thinking of what's best for ya', try listening, it's in your best interest babe.
NUFF SAID


shouting out to roisin k. kelly. dun mess.

This is going to sound predictable, trivial and pathetic, but music is my therapy. 


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=grPfVlj7Go4
A SONG ABOUT LOSS




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bY97gfGUFR0
A SONG THAT'S POINTLESS


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9QvaMQ4Z20
A SONG ABOUT LOVE, LIFE AND REALISM.

i've got you, to let me down

IT TAKES MUSCLE.

Tiring week, very tiring, and to end it, I got my Chemistry and Religious studies results back, two satisfactory B's, with one mark off an A in chemistry, so I'm happy with that I guess :) With all the talk of futures, choices and possibility, I honestly feel like my time in England will one day come to an end, I'd love to move abroad and truly 'make it' as someone, somewhere other than England.

Jim Rohn-
If you don't design your own life plan, chances are you'll fall into someone else's plan. And guess what they have planned for you? Not much.

check, 1, 2.

THE STROKES - WHAT EVER HAPPENED?

THE KING BLUES ANYONE ?

i'm the one, the only, what else?

Today, is the first day, in ages, that I've actually seen the sun. Yesterday evening, was freezing, and rainy, but apparently that's the right type of weather for an evening walk? I half agree, I needed a walk, it's the best scenario to talk things out with certain people.
Now, it's Saturday afternoon, and I'm currently digging the sunshine and sippin' on some pretty schweet lemonade that my mum bought me especially :) The motto of this- is to chill the f**k out. Everyone gets so stressed lately, but we're still young? so live a little? 


lastly :
http://www.yayer.co.uk/shop/index.php

badaboom

So, deciding a future is possibly the hardest thing ever. I know for certain, that I'm staying on at 6th form, and I hope that I am eligible for university after studying my A-Levels, but really, who knows?
Since I dislike talking about serious things, I'd like to distract you with :

<3